Fruit Cake

God? Are you there? It's me Margaret...

What a fantastic read, huh, ladies? I, however, have never read Judy Blume, nor do I intend to at this point. I'm more into Judy Dench, I think at my age...And she doesn't even write. Pity.

Some say it's better to have loved and lost, than never to have loved at all...I whole-heartedly disagree. Ignorance is bliss.

I've been thinking a lot about how much lying I've been doing since the big "D" to myself. It's not pretty. I've given myself excuse after excuse as to why I'm not working or happy or stable or blah blah blah. I knew I had to go through some serious soul searching crap, if you will, and I will. I just had no idea how hard it would be. So, I've decided to make it easy. I like easy.

I'm getting ready today to sell real estate. I'm getting ready today to make my life fun again. I say again, because I think it used to be fun when I had money at my disposal, so I shall try it...again.

I want the ocean as my backyard. I want my son to smile everytime he looks at me. I want my family to be proud of me. I want to get closer to God. I want a new car in my driveway. I want my best friend to be by my side.

I'm taking off now. I'm going to continue writing and I'm working on my first book, still, too. I can't wait to meet me very soon. I have an idea of what and who I am, I just have some finishing touches...always molding, learning and loving.